普通

“我没有你想象中那么坚强

我只是擅长用微笑去伪装

我没有你想象中那么勇敢

我偶尔也会慌。。。。。”



六年来

第一次的心力交瘁

可怕的念头

之前的跌倒 软弱 气馁

却不至于像现在

想离开一阵子

做个普通人

做普通的事

犯普通的错

而不像现在

逃避，勉强，担忧，彷徨，无助。。。。:(

东西坏了 可以维修

火灭了 可以在点燃

人的心死了 还能重生吗？？


原来，安静的自己是如此可怕。。。。

休~

终于，可以放下一点重担。不然，真的会喘不过气~
服事与学业？你会选哪一个？而我，可以两个都选吗？@.@
鱼与熊掌，永远不能兼得。。。:(
教会真的变我家了，一星期7点，差不多天天报道，妈妈没说什么，但是身边开始出现许多闲言闲语。。人们开始唠叨那“善意”的劝告。。
距离考试，剩下一份Assignment了，终于~
Speech, presentation, quiz, Group presentation。。马不停蹄，没完没了~
往往，人会怪罪、不满，因为我们都不能第一时间回复或呈交作品。。
可这次好委屈，我尽力尽我做Leader的本分，你们不会，我帮你们承担，你们不明白的，我逐一的留时间陪你们，跟你们解释，可是结果竟然跟我所想象的，天渊之别！责备你的，自己那份也好不到哪里去。
有些人，真的很难爱。。。>.<

我献上自己 I Surrender All to You

我只願能更多親近你 依偎在你同在裡
更貼近你的心意
我只願能全心倚靠你 永遠不離開你

是你賜給我生命氣息 賜給我溫柔的心
能讓我全心相信
世上無人能夠取代你 一生只願為你

主我獻上自己 成為愛的器皿
來完成你旨意 一生永不放棄

主我獻上自己 求塑造我生命
指教我你命定 我全人只願為你
一生只願為你

谢谢你，这一个月来，你从来没离弃我。有人问我：“你的爱怎么吸引我？什么让你六年来风雨不改的服事？”。。而我，很惭愧的竟然无以应对。你那么爱我，知道我的全部；而我，认识你吗？跪在你面前，我只能说“对不起！！”。原来，我把你的爱当得是理所当然的，而你却是那么爱我。"You have 1159 friends who do not know God! "吓了一跳，原来这么多人还不认识你，还没经历你的美好,该认罪悔改。。

让我更认识你，不再是说说而已，而是亲身经历你！生命不再一样，我渴望在你里面每天被更新，被塑造，被你的光和爱来充满。。这首歌，是我的祷告和献祭。。

幸福时刻 ^.^

这一天，是每个女生梦寐以求的时刻

精心策划下的计划 为要讨所爱的 不计较面子 却只是为了搏君一笑

爱情的魔力 能够战胜许多挑战考验

从上帝创世以来 让两个生命不完美的人 因着他遇见了对方 填补对方需要的那一块

在最爱的上帝及弟兄姐妹的见证下，与心爱的他执子之手

比起珍贵香膏与价值不菲的钻石，这份心意显得窝心，有说服力及别出心裁

他们的爱情 从我进入教会的一刻 一直成为我寻觅伴侣指标性的示范

明明是别人的求婚仪式，我却感动得流泪，好似自己的...

同样的学校 同样的STPM 嗨~为什么就是找不到呢？@.@


给：亲爱的恩姐

打从心底衷心的祝福你。你永远是我所爱的小组组长，总是那个温柔贤淑、开朗大方及体贴人心的Mama En~~每当我软弱时，你总会拉我一把，用你的爱包容我；每当我不知所措时，你用己身的生命见证来鼓励我。你们的生命都激励了许多还在寻找自我的年轻人。你有一个特别的生命，一个很好的听众，让人都得着安慰。再过几天，你就是“梁太”啦~ 哈哈。。 祝福你~ 一段新的旅途的开始，不再是一个人的旅行，乃是二人连结，牵手一起走下去。疲惫的时候，不用再独自挣扎，而是让另一个与你分担你的重量。难过的时候，不是先找地方躲，而是依偎在对方的安慰里，让他擦拭眼泪。也找到了分享喜悦的人。。啊。。不说了，太幸福了~~ 你现在应该是沉溺在幸福里，享受幸福时刻。。 神很爱你，我也是。。

moment of silence

I knew her two weeks ago...
She is a very hardworking, brave and determined gal..
Last wed, we sat together for oral com..
The session where i always complain y almost perfect score.. but not perfect..
Well.. Actually i doing quite well with her although there are some comments and feedback about her... just feel tat tis gal she need Jesus badly..
Just fin from dinner with li, den we receive call.. She has passed away..
First question come to us, has she accepted Christ??
Anyway, life still need to go on..
Ya.. Challenge coming anytime, but am i ready for it?
have i equipped myself??
Dear lovely gal, rest in peace.. Will remember u~~

Till when these have to be? @.@

Just wanna SHOUT it out..Leave me ALONE~~~
Tired...tired...and tired....
A question being asked: "Are you ready to face the challenges?"
I thought I were, but now i had no confidence to cross over it..T.T
Y all these comes together???
---Eng for business--
To deal with my confidence, I decided to take up this course which are giving out grades. I really want a good grade so badly. 1st week i went into class, 12 cats were sitting in it, ppl chosed to sit in their own formed group.. Year 1 sem 3... A group of seniors who never concern about your death or live. Sunday midnite, Chai Yuen texted me:"I've transferred course to GD. Tml I am not joining anymore."...Hmph, such a easy sentence came out from her..+.+...I tried to reform my little group with 2 ppl, Yew hsheng and a gal. In front of sir, she act nice to us. After all when i so hardly get my pc to form group in dropbox,next day without my permission she requested sir to transfer group. Although need permission of me, can I say "NO!" in front of sir?? Have u ever respect our rights?? The guy being transferred to my group was a senior who almost 90% comfirmed to quit course... Yet, what can I do?? Ended up, i used more than 12++ hours to finsh finding my ideal articles to be review. Thankful that Hsheng will consider my situation, a nice coursemate who willing reduce my burden and sent me come and go from bus stop. Well, better than none.....

---Media mass and society----
With full of excitement i expected something great from this course, end up same situation.. People keep dropping this course and quit.. All my friends gone... Even the only peacemaker,Chee Young.. What left behind is just my loneliness and fear.. I dunno how to cooperate with this extremely and over aggressive guy.. Tml is my first individual presentation.. Guess what, right now i typing my diary here with totally blank mind to figure out what to share tml...

Third same incident came, and I just did it to protect something.. ended up..
I will not use it for any uses..oh pls.. I just Get Over it.. I am tired being blamed... first time i can't speak to her because a sudden disappointment just came into my heart....

"These are the challenges you want me to work through it?"
"You sure I can fulfill it?"
"Can i press a "Pause" button?"

........................................................................THE END................

异想天开。。

哈哈！
祷告的时候，脑海闪过一个画面，一个人像。。
早上8点，无故的起床，拿起圣经一口气读了一遍《使徒行传》，可能基于上星期的圣经课程，开始爱上保罗这个人的生命。开着SOP准备着“相信有爱，就有奇迹”的歌，竟然让我发现了一个让数百万人羡慕的这个Video!!
女主角是一个我满喜欢的SOP的领诗——鄭懋柔，拥有一把甜美的声音。。
***也特别献给11月即将迈入人生另一段旅程，我亲爱的"mama"恩。。。 呵呵 ^.^