limit

If u dun have the sincerity, please do not promise anything.

If u dun plan it, please dont tell me

If u dun wan to listen, just ignore but dont tell me u understand

If u wan to do something, just go ahead but not LIED to me

Hard to breath..

Living in a cage, when I could be out there?

I need some moment of silence..................

原地兜圈

2013年，大家好像都在冲刺。
内心泛起一阵涟漪，我都做干什么来了？

一句话，把里头的心思完全瓦解，感觉特别怪。。
            

很努力在作好儿女、组长、学生、朋友的角色，别误会！ 没有特殊环境。

小组：谢谢每个爱我的他们，让我觉得自己不是一个人在争战（特别：人身处异乡，却仍然记得我）

学业：感谢神进步了，迈进了3.0的世界，在大学生活的第一个A-,荣耀归于神；

人际关系：我还在学习，放风筝。没有办法满足每个人的需要，但我会尽我所能；

家人：越来越亲密；

财务：比上不足，比下有余。。。上帝明白我的需要，我深深感觉到他在为我预备！！

那到底什么在困扰我？寻找内心的答案，学习聆听内心的呐喊。。听听神要我做的。。

感恩！！！

----------------------T.h.e E.n.d-------------------------

征兆？？？

很久没上部落格了，刚刚才发现原来这里已经生蘑菇了。。　赫赫！

难得假日，我来扫扫灰尘吧！ 呼呼~~ 

 以前，主日聚会完了，最想做的事就是跟一班老油去玩。喝茶也好，看戏也罢，现在好像只想回家倒头大睡。。。

喜欢在家的感觉、闭关、休息，安静的躺在自己的安乐窝。。
这是不是岁月悄悄流逝的痕迹？？@.@
 啊~~ 不要啊 。。。 

Learn to obey

I must admit that being OBEDIENT is challenging, Especially when you have grew up...

I thought it wasn't so difficult but after all failure ya.. I must admit it..

Some incident i need stayed back till 1.30a.m. which is something terrible.. sleepless night and i have a course trip tml.. think i'll be fainted soon.. Seriously.. my mental told me to feel unsatisfied..

Sometimes i wish to back to live a normal life, going for normal social life, gathering, relaxing.. Although it is nearly Impossible.. It has been already one year in uni but i still feeling that i am out of that gang, just like during form six..

Maybe i am too exhausted to get to know people? Or busy filled my time for them? or different lifestyle?? But sometimes i wish to live as how they are...


Just keep thinking my previous first year of knowing Him, no burden, no hurts, no responsibility but serve Him wholeheartedly.. More compassionate towards the poors..  But slowly i have no feeling (sometimes maybe)..

Every week, people come and go..

I din even have chance to speak with them.. Isn't that should be a cg leader responsibility?? but i couldn't fulfill this.. I dunno their names, hobby, appearance... the norm is they know my name but full stop for it.. nothing much.. means i failed in building relationship with them..

If i exclude church and those friends gang would i have any extra friends to reach out? something i worry about it.. What would my life be? back to normal? worst? It is so unpredictable...

What is definition of purpose-driven life? even before u get to know someone u need a purpose? call everyone just to call them to church but no concern of their life? When quantity increase is the quality increase at the same time?

Sometimes, knowledge caused someone to be blind spiritually.. hard to believe, trust and obey.. Busy caused us to lost direction..

Is it possible to put comma before reaching full stop?

Lord, pls soften my heart.. I know I wasn't like this last time; I wonder since when the emptiness, hurts, disappointment substituted your love.. I need a breakthrough... And a vacation for break..

Process of learning

沟通是一门很深奥的学问
轻则代表一个人的修养
重则带出一段关系的深度

要如何得人心
得先学会在什么时候、什么场合，用智慧来沟通

这门学问，我还在学习

学习如何说：
- 爱心里说诚实话
- 带有共鸣的话
- 智慧的言语
- 知识的言语
- 造就人的话

更重要的学习如何说出缓和冷场的话

好像林俊杰的《学不会》
我真的还是学不会

天地都会废去
唯独你的话不改变
圣灵啊
求你亲自来教导我
保守我的心  胜过一切
管教我  好像管教女儿一样

Pok-Ai-ing

If can, I really wish I could scold that woman badly..
Really pokai already... Saman RM 100, Rental deposit being taken off RM 150...
Oh gosh... The world is H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E!!!!!!!
Everything about $$$$$$$$.........
Chill feiching!!! BUT so hard~~ @.@
Huh.. sometimes to bless and Love some idxxt really need patience and His unfailing love..
ouchhhh... my pocket has a big hole now..
Just let me express my anger for ONCE!
Lou gu po, no men love u, then u choose to love money izzit!??
So in love with money, why dun you just be a banker?
You BIXXT!!!!
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I know I was rude.. but i need some space to release my emotions...
So paise I ter-express my anger in front of Miki.. hopefully she will understand...
I was hoping mum could even ask her to give back the money...sighhhh..T.T
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Lord, please return it to me..
It's all my mum's $$.. I shouldn't be wasting it like dat..NOT worth it...
My wish is to reduce parents' burden, yet seems like they are paying fortune bcoz of me.. :(

感觉 x 想法

跟随感觉-------- 对/错
理性判断-------- 对/错
两者之间的平衡点，可能只是一线之差。。。。

在一段关系里，感觉比理性来得重要？还是理性取胜？
人与人相处，摩擦是难免的。
重要的时——当下的诚意
诚意，可以决定饶恕的宽度，谅解的力度，更多是感情的深度。。。。

让人觉得不安的是，三个字“我以为”。
一句话，足够破坏一段巩固的友谊，产生让人负面的思绪。
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“我以为，你懂”。。。但其实我不懂。。
.
“我以为，你可以”。。其实我想说“不可以”
.
“我以为，他们”。。。那几时轮到‘我们”或是“你们”？？？

最恐怖是，“我可以，为什么你不可以？”
原因很简单，因为我们不一样。。。。。

走了漫长的路，回想如果今天走的是一个完全不熟悉环境的，我舍得吗？
他会不会像我们一样找到出路？
或许，我会希望那个人不需要向我这样。。。
疯子，
撑着疲惫的身躯，
搭上毫无方向及延长时间的交通，
转了不下十个弯，
花光了身上所有，
考试完飞奔着忘了午餐，
到头来转到了家，
滚滚的热气冲上头，
望着对方叹气。。。。

临时更该没错，错在事情的交待。
不指望细腻安排，只求晓得内容：时间，正确地点，支援。。
队友应该永远知道发生什么事，团队精神失去了真正含义。

最后，一句”对不起”是关键，能够融化冰冷的心，人们却常常把这三个字忘记。。

有时候，心直口快能让你“痛快”，总比按压感觉等待爆发来得少伤害。。。

Ps: dun tink too much...>.6