Monday, August 31, 2009

Bye~~my best fren..

My best fren... Hosanna...
Today she will go back to Johor,
for the training for "jing bing"
really very not willing to let her go,
quite sad about her leaving...

Actually i don't really know her for long time,
but dunno why I can become friend with her...
till we know each other story,
each other family background...
surprisingly i realize we have a similar part,
that is we both dun have "father",
she lost her father when she was young,
and I live like no father,
never talk to him.......................
Our only father that can rely on is our Father Lord...
She also have the same feeling with me when the first time we step into Philadelphia Church,
tat is this is my family,
this is my home,
this place is my shelter,
the warm feeling in my heart make me stay in church till today.....

Just wan to tell her,
she really play an important role in my life,
like an angel in my life,
thank God for putting her in my life,
even just three months.....
she always comforting me,
helping me whenever I need help,
always giving me advice,
indeed she understand me more than any friends of mine,
like last time my leader did to me......

this two days i was trying to hold my tears,
stopping it from coming out..............................
but i failed,
during dream factory,
and sunday service when pastor prayed 4 her.............

My friend,
all the best in the coming soon training programme,
hope you enjoy it,
and come back with more anointing and blessing....
Although my heart hope you can stay,
but i know there is a better plan for you,
i will wait for you to return to us.
You have promised us must come back after two months de....
You will returned to attend the graduation day of the dream factory

Anointing prayer

NECF combined prayer,
the theme of "Love your neighbour"
glad to have Pastor Philip Mantofa with us...

We are late on tat day,
no choice we have to go for another wisma level 5,
i have never went to level 5 even during this two years A4J conference,
GUESS WAT?
the message sent by God was so anointed till all of us in level 5,
cry till no more image,
from the image sent I can feel how much God love Malaysia..
YES! God really love Malaysia very much.
He has a better plan for Malaysia...

Before this i keep asking God,
God,
why can't our country have revival like Taiwan/Indonesia,
why we need to live in a muslim country,
why................................................................
..........................................................................................................................
The answer:
Because i born in here,
And i born again at here.....Malaysia

message from God:
1. Don't only pray but you have to act out
2. Don't just listen to sermon, but listen to the message from God
3. We have to save soul as there is no tomorrow
4. Different churches must always pray for each other and helping each other
Yeah....
think this is the lesson God want me to learn...

At night, having supper with Pastor meng and meilin jie,
and they were discussing about the combined prayer...
really it is a different night,
a very anointed combined prayer...

Friday, August 28, 2009

Day to OUG~~

actually the 7 girl guides committee planned to go Petaling Street,
since 2 get sick,2 cannot go,
so only left me, en, and snoopy....
I was shocked, suddenly all cannot go....

thank God I told Poh Li wat I want,
and she willing to bring three of us went the shop called "Mr.D.I.Y"
the shop really consists of a lot of cheap and cutie things tat we need..
sumore bring us to the pan mee food stall which opened by her aunt...
which recommended by chui ling in the tv programmed called "1 Day 5 Meal"
really nice and worthy...
It looks small and although we all order small,
but the portion is quite big actually..




finally we also come out wif an idea and budget,
didn't wasted our time just go there and do nothing..
really hope can help the girl guide to earn more money for community work...
yet still appreciate all my good helpers as they had tried their best to contribute for the event...
thx for Poh Li, Hui En, Sheen Yeen, Ping Yeng, Suet Ying, Pui Yee, Shirley......

number changing~~

soli frenz for any confusing..
due to the hotlink youth club package was so attractive,
it offer 1 cent for message to any maxis or hotlink number,
so i decided to ask mannee to buy the number 4 me...

so now i still got two number
(1)digi: 010-2944280
(2)hotlink: 017-6470171

心里话。。

其实,哥去英国,
送行的那一天,超想哭,
第一次被他抱在怀里。。。

他一转身,我看见了。。。
妈妈,不停的擦拭眼泪;
佩璇姐,也忍得好辛苦,变得沉默;
而我,
脑里开始出现和他的画面,
从小时候,
打架骂架,
我们一起帮妈妈庆生的日子。。

记得有一次,
他误会了我,
他叫我帮他洗东西,
我答应了,可是刚起身要洗时,
他回来看见了,
就误会说我为了敷衍他。。
心好难过。。。。。。。。。。

有一次他出门,
跟我说了一句活,
让我好感动,
“妹,我出门了,你好好看家哦。。”
他一走,我的眼泪瞬间落下。。。。

他走了,
虽然不是很长时间,
但总觉得家里少了些什么,
我想这就是血浓于水吧!!!
平时他总在你身旁,
一旦不在了,
又开始想念了。。。。

我想,
我的家开始改变了,
心理的渴求:
每个人看见我的改变,
会觉得耶稣你真是个好东西,
让我妹/女儿改变了。。。
好想一家人一起服事。。。
但我知道,
要从我开始,
我必须学习建一座坛给神。。。。

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Batu Caves Field Trip(22/08)

FULLY EXHAUSTED!!!
Never been to such difficult caves to do adventure..
like never before have to do expose to snake, cockcroach and others...
sumore i most scare of all these creatures...
in my heart was whispering to Him:
pls protect me, God!!!!
How la!!! God!!! can i go into the hole?
All kinf of questions came to my mind...
till i really experience fatigue,
and got no extra energy to think about it....

another thing is about the crawling matter,
how come only me among 39 people cannot go in?!!
wooo....i want expeience the same thing wif everyone...
so i tell joe(the guide):
wait for me for another two years,
i will be back!!! And i muz get into the hold!!!
haha...dunno can do it or not de....keke

still there are a lot of fun inside there,
the spirit of teamwork , cooperation, tolerate are needed...
and thx for all the guys for helping the gal in this adventure trip,
without you all gal will be quite susah lo....

i enjoy tis trip la...
really hope next time can go again and get into the hole...

finally, i threw my skul shoes..keke ^_^
P.S: kheng aik said his mum will be veli happy since she asked him to throw it away long time ago...

新声音,新感觉,不同的感动





平凡。。

一张张的面孔,走在路上,
或许没有人会多望一眼,
但心里面仍然很踏实,
因为有你爱我,那就足够了。。。
真的,我很满足了。。。

Who am i,
tat i really dunno the purpose of my life,
my future is undecided,
my family bond still not enough strong,
i am not the best of all,
not the prettiest,
not a favourite person..

YET,YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH....

Your hand lany on me,
comfort me,
encourage me,
strengthen me,
and the bonding between me and family...

I am just an ordinary gal,
because You love me,
I become SPECIAL...

Sunday, August 2, 2009

form 6-fun yet difficult

FUN-
because everyone like a family...
1. supporting, sharing, concerning, helping each other..
2. sumore my dear class L6B is such a nice class...
3. sometimes making jokes with pn.wong(chem teacher)pity her..haha...being locked outside the class...she is such a wonderful and understanding teacher...
4. pn.see also popular..especially the micheal jackson joke..forever i remember her.....
5. my dearest angels- siu jeen and win zee...friendly and helpful angels...
and win zee, i am not always doing maths...so dun worry...haha..
6. my cf gang- happy to meet them(chia lit, ester, nat, tim, hui en, jun hong,...)
thx chee yan, chia lit, nat always giving advice and show ur concern...veli touch....
7. all the lower six and my classmate, all crazy ppl...including myself....haha
......................................................................

DIFFICULT-
1. maths work is like daily devotion liao...
2. bio a lot of things to memories, sumore got test...
3. chem!! totally different wif form 5....susah daripada bio o...
4.pa- no comment...gadoh nice story line.....thx for mohd ali....
5. hard to get pose...haiz....my koko die liao lo.....wonder i get the offer to uni....
........................................

yet.....i enjoy form 6 life, enjoy meeting new fren, enjoy everything.....
skul life is my most joyful time.......

weird~~abnormal~~

oh no...feel like unable to control my emotion anymore...
the feeling of being betrayed make me really hurt...
till i really need 200% extra energy to forgive
and build my confidence towards them...
God...pls soften my heart...help me in the effort for forgiving...
i know i can't do much....
but still i believe wif Christ everything is impossible....
i do everything just to hear You say well done....

tis minute i can be talkative and friendly
but next minute will like a death person no voice no emotion...
i really need some time...
though i know you all love me, my fren.....
wanted to stop all my doubt in tis moment......

p.s: wat had happened to me??