beh tahan 的关心

一次的提醒，那叫关心
两次的提醒，那叫劝导
三次的提醒，那叫唠叨~~

啊~~有时候希望人的口可以小一点，所发出的声音少一点。。。

下johor,给人问了不上十次；回到kl,又是一样的问题。。都跟你说刚刚好，你还一直问，有点不会做人咯~~ 更好笑，3.89的人问我如何进入大学/如何申请奖学金/如何填写表格。。我的天~~ 果然，上帝是很公平的。感谢神，至少证明我不笨！！！ 我家的，一封信，讲了3月中之前会汇寄出去，一天问了5次，搞笑咯。。

感谢神，身边太多的瞩目。。不过，可以拿掉一点吗？？ 让我唯一一天的休假静静好吗？？？

Growing

成长是个过程
我生命的路刚刚才开始
抛开所有的思想的缠累　
断开所有的枷锁
我要一个全新的自己
不再情绪化
不再自怜怜人
不再轻易动摇
一个让人可以信任
一个讨我神的喜悦
一个不再成为别人负担

当然，这个过程很像毛虫蜕变成蝴蝶，很痛、很辛苦、很考耐力，但是我还是想尝试，看看蜕变后的自己，会不会变得格外不一样。。

breakthrough

Yes i need it..
It might be really tough and difficult, especially it comes to trials and making decisions, fulfilling task...but I trust in You!
Life is hard, but walk wif u everything become easy~~
Guide my way,refuge my strength when i need to be transfomed..
I am enough wif it, God your are dream maker..
The only one who knows my way
The only one who can accompany me throughout the journey
The only one who can understand my feelings completely..

Father, thank you..
By your mercy i am able to enjoy the privilage as Your beloved daughter
By your grace i am able to serve You in the house
Because of you the blind can see
Because of you heaven knows my name
Because of you my life has found a home

So grateful when seeing all comments and encouragements from dearest leaders and frens..special thank to pastor for sharing his own experience in uni life..appreciate the two big sisters in my life currently for giving advice and help doing research for me..dear angel jeen and winzee, really proud of you guys after realised STPM really a high standard exam.. thx to all seniors and frens who concern about my exam..thx to neh also who purposely send regards from nus in singapore...
Big big thanks to my dear LORD who sent so many angels in my life to guide and help me throughout the difficult time..

NOW, the 1 month plan started...
What would be the first day and the final day differences..
i can't wait to see it and feel it personally..
Neither by my own strength nor intelligence, You are the one who make changes..

Someday

Song by : IU
Title : Someday

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I'm getting tired of looking me exhausted
I want to give all my dreams I've kept hard
Every time I feel that I'm lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself "it'll be alright"
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don't
Now I don't know how longer I can hold out

But wait it'll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me

I don't have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it'll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday...
Someday...

Leave me alone

JUST...leave me alone..
no matter how, i have to face this myself...
Ya God u make it real for wat i pray for...
but seems like i dun satisfied of it..
Pls take all those As comments away..it is like a knife hurting me..
Now is the time
For me to settle down and think carefully..
Teachers:"you can get de, but dun apply penisular.."
That means i have to leave Selangor,frens, family, even church.....
plan...................................................................

给自己的信~~

嘿嘿！你可以的~~ 加油吧！！！！ <3<3<3

慧卿 上
17-2-11

can i???

can i.....................give up???

can i......................stop bother???

can i......................put all aisde???

can i........................escape???

can i.......................hide???

can i now...............stop making?? who i give to when there are none coming???

啊！！！！！

好累。。。。好无力。。。。。。。。。
三个月了，为什么还是一样？！
花了我的红包，用了两夜研究，结果。。。
刚刚的不小心，迟点可能全副身家都得赔上了。。。
到底怎么了？？ ？
我找不到出口了，喘息的空间少了。。。