last minutes again..

why muz everything done by last min?
why muz decision made by last min?
still blame me o?!
%^@$^&%*(^***(..........
for 5 years you still dunno my shcedule..
had u ever put ur attention on me?
i hate these........
if u noe i am busy and full of activities,
won't u ask me once you get informed?

i hate most last min plan..
even dinner,shopping, everything...
it mess up my time and planning...

百感交集

现在，我好像清楚自己在做什么，又好像不清楚.........乱......

还有几天，就得离开我亲爱的学校，这个曾经困扰、压力、培训、教导、扩张我眼界的地方。

有数不尽的人对于它非常有兴趣，他们的问题总是离不开：“公教好吗？”、“公教考试难吗？”、“公教的老师行政好吗？”、“你在公教还好吗？”、“我女儿也想去，你怎样进的啊？”、“这么远，做么你要去的？”。。。

原来，这个地方已经烙印在我心里，不知不觉七年过去了...

-因为它，开始我人生许多的第一次
[第一次搭巴士去学校、第一次参加camp、第一次做委员、第一次带领一班人努力获得胜利、第一次使用自己的恩赐、第一次去class party]

-因为它，我知道我只是蚂蚁这样渺小，凭着一点好成绩，觉得很厉害，结果考试稀巴烂，才知道“一山还有一山高”...

-因为它，我了解成绩差跟好的差别待遇，但也体会到“天生我材必有用”的道理，因为公教真的是人才济济，从学术、音乐、运动、策划、领袖，一个都不缺....只要你曾经踏入，你会察觉它和其他学校的差别，节目从策划，实行，筹备，甚至是开会，都是学生或特定团队负责，老师只是做监督的工作。

-因为它，我懂朋友的意义，不只是分享欢乐悲伤，而是更多的帮助彼此，互相勉励，一起成长。因为不只同班同学，老师也可以是你的好朋友，一起庆祝生日，一起熬夜布置场景，一起为各自的队伍加油，分享胜利的喜悦，同受失败的痛；甚至得罪老师的时候，得亲自准备小礼物逗老师欢心，哈哈.....

-因为它，我尝尽了人生必经的酸甜苦辣。酸，当看见别人做得比自己好很多；甜，与每个人的邂逅，在整个关系的建立，当大家同心协力完成任务的时候；苦，在现实与成绩的挣扎，在面对失败和许多批评的时候。当别学校的人活得自由自在，我们却在忙碌奔波的时候；辣，当老师丢了一个不可能的任务，或是面对棘手的问题的时候.....

谢谢你，
公教中学，
别人眼中看是高攀的地方，
在我眼中却是个温暖的大家庭，
有爸妈特质的老师，
有哥哥姐姐关心的senior,
互相学习的同伴，
还有一些可爱的弟妹junior...

就此搁笔，卿。

Special Day ^.^

Dear God,
this is the birthday present i prayed for this year..
Use it as the opportunity to let them hear the good news from You..
This is my desire,
there is nothing else special gift than this, Lord...

YES,
once again..
my birthday goin to spend in church for the forth year,
but never mind,
all the complain turn become thanksgiving...
For the past three years birthday,
i had been in church for midnite prayer, prayer and event..
For those who doesn't know Him yet,
they will think this is the worst plan,
but for me it is the most beautiful plan..
How nice if i can see hundreds get salvation instead of receiving gift for my own..

Now onli i realize,
施比受更为有福。。。


《一件礼物》
有一件禮物，你收到沒有，
眼睛看不到，你心會知道。
這一件禮物，心門外等候，
是為了你準備別人不能收。

親愛的朋友，你是否想到，
馬槽的嬰孩，是為你而來。
親愛的朋友，你是否了解，最好的禮物是人子主耶穌。

生命有限，時光也會走，
如果你不珍惜，機會難留。
禮物雖然好，如果你不要，
你怎麼能夠得到，怎麼能得到？

random

lately lazy to post things..
Time seem to be insufficient..
But trying to put my best foot forward..
Recently people kept asking :
which uni u wan to apply for?
which course you wan to take?
which career you wan to persue after these?

NO IDEA...........

o..give me a break...
can i just my little time in whatever i want to do?
the feelings of being observed make me feel at ease
sometimes i wish i could be an ordinary person..
study not b'coz i need to go for test,
but really study for my interest....
It's still not the time yet,
wait till i finish my studies till year end....

Dream,
you seems to be far from me..
i can't reach you..

Heart
Could you tell me..
What is the thing that i looking for?

Journey of life has just started..
Many obstacles are waiting for me...
Many challenges i still need to take...
Many lessons waiting for me to learn..
Many blessing of Him i still expecting..

My Saviour,
you in charge of my life,studies,family,finance,everything...

[Lord i give u my heart i give u my soul~~i live for u alone]

想念

真的很过分！！
凭什么？！
人家也只是要为自己的孙女做点事，
难道你对你的父母也是这样吗？
要背着两个菜蓝，
走在路上被人耻辱嘲笑，
却用腼腆的微笑带过，
这是需要何等大的勇气？！
竟然还被人这样来对待。。

“这不是你该来的地方！”
穷就是罪吗？
身份地位卑贱就不是人吗？
衣着打扮不高尚就没资格逛百货公司吗？
不知道那位老公公的心情是怎样。。。
很尴尬吧？
可是还是得厚着脸皮，
眼角还残留着泪水，
只为了一个发夹。。。。

给那个孙女：
如果你在那里，你会做什么？保护你的爷爷吗？
如果你看到那张照片，你的感觉是怎样？
如果你看见爷爷的那滴辛酸的泪水，
你也会因此流下眼泪吗？

好辛酸哦！
心揪了一下，
眼泪不禁涌流出来，
突然想念公公，
不知不觉他已经走了三年，
好像昨天他还在这世界，
想念跟他同坐一张桌子吃饭的情景，
教我用筷子的情景，
赤着脚走在石头路上，
80岁骨骼却拿着斧头砍柴的样子，

给公公，
我好想念你，好爱你哦。。。
-爱你的孙女-

P.U.S.H

P-ray
U-ntil
S-omething
H-appen

真正发觉到，
我蛮需要一辆车...

昨天去MV,
竟然用了两个钟头才到，
10.15 a.m-突发状况，跑回家...
10.25a.m-忘记带钱，又跑回家，距离巴士站还有不到200米...
10.30 a.m-终于出门
10.40 a.m-到巴士站
11.45 a.m- metro 9 终于到了，上巴士...
12.20 a.m-抵达MV

你没看错，我没写错，巴士一个小时才来一次，足够我来回MV了..
如果换作是驾车，我已经到了，坐在那里吃完早餐了。

刚刚收到电话：“慧卿姐，你可以帮我上课吗？”
我：“我想，但得和友婷姐谈时间。。”
对他们真的很抱歉，
我暂时还没车，
没办法适时满足你们的需要...

祷告吧！
上帝，
这是我的呼求，
你是我的供应者，
求你为我开道路、开江河，
在人看是不能的，
求你成就一切不可能的...

装傻

又来了...

有些事情不可能就是不可能...

而我，

能够做的，

就只有装傻.....

不放手

啊...上帝啊..
你知不知道我多紧张?!
整颗心好像要跳出来了...

第二次带,
紧张程度还是一样 =.="
怕怕~~~~~

感谢神，
你的恩典又让我过了一关..
可是，
过关是一回事，
你满意吗？
如果你不满意，
那我再怎么辛苦也没意思了.....

求你继续带领我，
这服事我不知道会走多远，
但是只要你还愿意给我机会的一天，
我就会抓着机会不放的咯...

我紧紧抓住你，我永远不放手....

下星期，
我又来了，
剩下两个星期，
唱到喉咙出血，
我都还要再唱....

First practice

Today is a special day, because it is the 1st time superkids team launched the praise and worship practice. Special thanks to Eric who willing to organised this practice spontaneously and took the risk of being scolded by leader.

At first, we all like the children without mentor. No drummer (dinner), no p.a men, no leader, all on our own... A pianist with a guitarist and three vocalist included two worship leaders..The practice was stucked there due to insufficient instrumental music and "mo qi"...So blur =.=

End up, the practice suspended with a volunteer, our guitarist request to pray. It is weird but at least we got to be alert in our ministry. Once again we all were reminded to serve our Almighty Lord with whole heartedly and right attitude. Lord, forgive us if there is anything which not pleased You..

Thank God, we might not be the best team withv excellant people or talents, but we had a commitment to God..We want make all children turn to Him, praise and worship Him and give glory to Him...

Lord, watch over this team. Remember all these ppl who willing to pay the price for Your kingdom. Althought everything might not go smoothly, but we need Your presence with us...

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

[玩笑]

有时候，东西玩久了就不好玩了；玩笑开大了也不好笑。

有些东西，不是一句对不起能了结，因为可能你不知觉造成了别人的伤害。

多几个钟头，不知道会发生什么事..一切在我手指的掌控下，不知道我们的关系会有什么变化.. 祷告我一觉醒来什么都忘了吧！

这不是第一次了，我累了，没力气再说了...

不要让我做这种事好吗？我会很痛苦的。。。祷告了半个钟，最后还是决定写了，可以想象我有多么的生气。>.< 我生气，不是因为玩笑；是视乎开玩笑的对象是谁，因为我在意你，朋友...倘若你不是我的朋友，我不会放在心上。正因为你是我朋友，我更加要对你坦白。我以为你知道我的底线在哪里。我还没有心理准备去面对这一切，我之所以用文字表达，是因为我还没办法去应对整个问题，你明白吗？

我在那个网站的原则很简单：“就是只写造就的字眼，其他不需要的就免了”


上帝啊，扩张我的境界，给我一颗怜悯的心，让我学会饶恕的功课...


以弗所书4：26 “生气却不要犯罪．不可含怒到日落”



后语:
如果你看到那段话，就会明白了..但是如果没有，那我希望在那时我已经克服了，并且可以坦然面对你，不戴着一丝不好的情绪，更不希望我戴面具面对你...

值得学习

John 1:48-51

"48Nathanael said to Him, "How do You know me?" Jesus answered and said to him, "Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you." 49Nathanael answered Him, "Rabbi, You are the Son of God; You are the King of Israel." 50Jesus answered and said to him, "Because I said to you that I saw you under the fig tree, do you believe? You will see greater things than these." 51And He said to him, "Truly, truly, I say to you, you will see the heavens opened and the angels of God ascending and descending on the Son of Man."

何等大的信心，他相信一切从耶稣所说的，没有一丝怀疑，值得我去学习。。。
神，我祷告我也要有如此大的信心，能够看见你奇妙的作为。。。

46..

My goodness~~
46 days to go.....
To myself: "study la..."

Encounter Him

Due to a cute person's request, I decided to post in english.
*Remarks: my eng not that pro...

As many know i am having important exam the end of year, but to be honest i din studied much. So onli left one and a half month to put my best foot forward, try to understand, memorize everything within these periods. The failure to take my last paper-maths T paper 2 coz me to lost mine trial result. >.<
This is the 1st time I phobia for exam after i fin took exam for 18 years... I was lost.. Lord, why am i here? what can i do? Can I leave? Why i kept on failed the subject? Many questions in my mind.. Lord I felt so useless and weak...

Today met my dear spiritual parent, thank you so much Jessie jie! I really had a great time wif her..although whole conversation ended up wif tears, but it is the tears of being moved and comforted.. She kept on telling me: " Dun encounter the world or yourself, but Encounter God","God is Bigger than your problem" and her own self experience...

Yeah, now only I realized I have no faith in You even thousand times i told people to "let go and let God". Lord, sorry that i kept rely on my own strength and wisdom, thank you for never letting me go,thank you for always been there for me, i know you still waiting for me to turn to You.

Here i am, Abba Father! Back to Your side, my sweetiest hug. My hiding place where i can pour out my fatigue, worries, upset..Your will is greater than my will, let Your will be done on me....



Zech 4:6
So he said to me, "This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: "Nor by might nor by power, but by my Spirit," said the Lord Almighty.

简单和困难

这个决定
对我很困难
但对某些人
好像喝水一样简单
付诸于四年的心血、时间、泪水，
是个人的定义不同？
还是他们没有经历过？
我相信领袖的决定
这也是我服事他们的原动力，
当初的一句话，
“以后他们就是带领另一半青少年的。 ”

上帝啊！
对不起，
是因为我真的爱他们，
真的太在乎了，
我还学不会安息在主的怀中，
帮助我，
好让我灵尊主为大，
对，你大过所有的问题。。

当大海翻腾波涛汹涌
我与你展翅暴风上空
父你仍作王在洪水中
我要安静知你是神。。